I had an epitome today. I spend so much time being mad at the STUPIDEST THINGS. Why do I do it? Because I’ve been hurt before in the past and I don’t trust people or situations without careful consideration? Yeah, probably. Life gives me lemons alot but I think it’s time that I took those lemons and threw them back. I’m getting better at a lot of things I used to just hold grudges against. Jealousy. Anger. Stress (still have a lot though :/). Love. Friendships. I’m slowly learning to trust more and let people back into my life.
Family Weekend really opened my eyes to that. I could write and write and constantly write of how I feel but until I actually start to do something, things will never get done. I want to accomplish things in life and I want to share it with those I care about. Sometimes I scream, yell, cry, and get frustrated but it’s out of the goodness of my heart. I just care so much about the things I firmly believe in. Messing up and failure are just some things that are too hard to let happen even though I’ve expressed that it’s happen. I will change the world, even if it means simply giving a hug to someone who really needs it. If I can make someone’s day that much better than I know I did my job. :)
I’ve made a bucket list. It WILL happen.
10. Go skydiving.
9. Run a half-marathon
8. Go swimming in the Trevi Fountain
7. Adopt an African baby
6. Become fluent in Spanish (still working on it)
5. See the Northern Lights
4. Learn how to use a pogo stick
3. Write a novel
2. Spend the day and brighten it with a mentally disabled person.
1. Fall in Love
